Its good

You know, I am very glad that God works the way he does. Cause if he worked the way I do, that would suck for me. Simply look at the first sentence of this post...I wasn't saying that yesterday. I am so wishy-washy ( i love that word, it makes me want to sneak into a washing machine...) in everything I do. I like to go around pretending that I know what is best for me, but yea, I know not what is in my best interest. And even though at 8 o'clcok tonight I will probably be wishing that God would work the way I want him to, I know that I am truly happy he doesn't.

Today I was able to devote more time to prayer than I have in a long time. There are a few reasons that I have been having difficulty praying, but thats not the point. The point is that I was not wanting to come into amazing communion with the God of all creation!

In my short, short life as a believer in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, I have come to learn a thing or two about prayer. Regardless of how often I actually carry them out, they are still knowledge from experience. One way to get into a "prayerful mood" is to to praise God and pray for others. Why? Cause prayer is not, has never been, and will never be about me.  It is about God and others. And when I begin to look at God's beauty and begin to pray for others, I get to a place where I am comfortable with God.

I don't know why I chose to post this post. I guess that I thought a blog is to convey my thoughts, and these are my thoughts today. So take 'em or leave 'em. :)

serge

Last semester

today was the first day of my last semester. I thought I would be super excited...but I wasn't. I'm not sad, more apathetic. Like I am not ready for the semester to begin. I am not ready to learn or interact with students and professors. I don't want to veg on my couch, but I don't want to be in a classroom either. I guess that defines my life. Stuck between two decisions that I don't really have a choice in anyway. Like whether I like it or not school has begun. I pretend like there is the option to not go to school. Like vegging is a serious choice, but it's not.

The reality is that I am in school. This is where I get to be. So why am I complaining to the online world instead of coming before God and asking him to change my heart? Good question...

The only other blog I have written was a travel blog this past summer. I enjoyed writing it and being able to share my thoughts, no matter how random. So I decided to start a normal one. Let me know what you think and I will try to not make it too boring. I just hope I actually keep up with it.

serge